Third week into February, time is flying fast.
A couple of things.
1. For the past two weeks, I've watched: Julie & Julia, The Hurt Locker, Up in the Air, Post Grad, The Burning Plain. Pick of the month: Up in the Air (written/directed by Jason Reitman) It's so amazingly written, and while the chances of it winning Best Picture are slim - it's so good, that I wish I could write something like that. Even the screenplay is engaging.
It's the most sad and depressing movie I've seen so far -- but I absolutely LOVED it.
The perfect film to show a man who can't COMMIT.
And while I absolutely loved 21 Grams, Amorres Peros and Babel - The Burning Plain was a great big disappointment!! To think that all four films were written by the same person. HOWEVER -- this just goes to show: a good script can falter in the hands of an inexperienced director.
2. Congratulations Kat!! I'm so, so happy for you :) Seven years is worth the wait, kan? Hopefully I boleh dtg your wedding nanti, insyaAllah :) and I know you're going to be the gorgeous, blushing bride! I miss you here jugak!!! :(
3. So after someone says I'm 'complacent' yesterday a really good friend tells me, 'you've become so jaded!' Say whaaaa---at? Great, I came to New York to not become just that - jaded, but here I am. Jaded again. Guess it's high time for me to move on to bigger, better things...
4. OK. What's the deal here? Who has been distributing my silly film around? Dah lah tak siap lagi, I still need to put in score, and have the sound reworked on... but now it's been shown around :( That's not cool... and while I am very flattered to be screened with more established directors, I'm still bummed because it's not my best work. I can't even watch it ever again, without wanting to pull my hair out... ok, let's be positive here. Maybe it's a good thing. Maybe people will stop and pay attention and I will attract investors to fund my future projects... kan? Kan? Kan?
5. Yesterday in cinematography class we had a demonstration on shooting 3D. At first I wasn't really bothered because I couldn't wrap my head around the concept, but now, after understanding how it works I think it's really, really cool. Well, I mean, it's not like I'm aspiring to shoot an entire narrative feature length film in 3D, but maybe work on a cool installation video with 3D. It'll be so cool!!! Last night I also contemplated on not going to a classmate's birthday celebration. But she came to my party and I felt indebted! So I did. It was at this really cool speakeasy bar in LES - think red velvet walls, a fireplace (!!) and an uber cool back alley entrance.. well not to ramble, I'm glad I went because it was fun hanging out with friends from school :)
6. I hate feeling this way. Waking up every morning thinking that he's bored of me, and have second thoughts about what he's promised me. I'm really trying my best to hold back and give him space but it's so hard because when he's nice I become attached and I miss him even more so, and I want to call and text and make sure he's doing okay. Is it so wrong to care about someone so much? Maybe I'm being paranoid, but I think... I think it's really time for NC (which means... well, google 'break up NC'...)
7. Biggest motivation of running: THUNDER thighs. I mean, you gotta need something that inspires you to suffer through 30 minutes of bursting your lungs/torturing yourself with stitches/wanting to just curl up and scream "WHY THE HELL AM I DOING THIS?!?!" And fact: I run best with Britney Spears blasting out loud.
OK, I'm really just bored at work, seems like I hardly have anything to do over here when I come in during office hours. BUT! I'm super excited for this weekend!! Shutter Island/a classmate's Glitter Party!! Happiness!! So yes, there is NO REASON TO FEEL BAD. THE VOICE OF SELF-LOATHING - SHUT UP ALREADY!!!!
