Fact #1

I REALLY LOVE GREY'S ANATOMY.
I don't care what you think, the writing is so good.

Pandora is Love

Last Friday was perfect, Pandora, rainy morning, nothing to do at work, Indian lunch with a new friend/colleague. Then the weekend came; laundry + grocery + afternoon nap + night in + long silly conversation with the boyfriend over skype = my ideal Saturday! Sunday was spent in the sound stage at school for a master class session with DP Fred Elmes , tea of bubur pulut hitam (my current obsession!) with Nadi & friend before rushing off to Chloe's for oxtail stew and corn bread over Family Guy...

It was a good weekend, absolutely.
Did I get any work done?
HAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA@#("@!($)$@)$!)!)!)!!)!)!#(!_#_!#)_#)

I find myself skipping my Monday afternoon class and evening work shift at the library on the pretext of -
A) feeling unwell (like Monday last week, and the week before, and the week before the week before)
B) needing to go home and finish writing this freaking thesis script..

But fell asleep instead!

EPIC FAIL.
Maybe all I need is motivation. OK, if this week goes smoothly I am rewarding myself with -
A) Where The Wild Things Are
B) New York, I Love You

Now off to write..

So tired.

Only one month into school and I'm so, so so tired.
Who knew having three jobs (tech-assisting, videographer-ing, and freelance screenwriting) could suck so much? Especially when my meager pay can't pay for a decent pair of boots.

:(

Cinemanila 2009- DECLINED

5 rejections in a row..

:(

HAPPY HAPPY!!

OK OK just wanted to write this down before I lose my enthusiasm..
After having not much sleep, sprinting like an idiot to Spike's class today, losing breath, thinking that his class wasn't AS super amazing as I thought it would be - of course it just became THE MOST CRAZY AMAZING CLASS EVER after CLIVE OWEN walks into the room, and everyone starts freaking out because we had just watched 10 minutes into Inside Man (and was groaning when Spike said to stop playing the DVD and the lights came back on)

I'm not much of a fangirl but if there was a Hollywood actor that I would ever imagine working with, it would be him. I mean, I'm sure most people have seen Children of Men (freaking genius) and Closer (... sigh. HOT) and for someone who doesn't EVER ask questions in class, I made up some silly questions just so I could talk to him... lame ass, I know, but I really didn't care.

Then in camera class I got to play around with the RED and that was cool.. and then I came home to a nice fat check from my insurance company as compensation for the broken LCD screen monitor of my 15' MacBookPro...

One of those rare, sweeeeeet days :)

SHOUTOUT TO EIDA!! SORRY WEIH.. AKU BUSY.. bukan sengaja nak lupa kat hang... selamat hari rayaa!!!! MWAHMWAH I WILL CATCH UP WITH YOU SOON K?? XOXO

Le sigh.

Ugh, blogger makes my pictures look really bad!
I'm so tired of being stressed out about random school (bureaucracy).
I should have been writing my script since I got back, but I spent 2 hours making dinner and watching 90210, and another 3 hours at Matt's listening to random music and talking shit about people.

OK time to sleep.

Hrrrrrmmms..

I don't know, things like these - make me really angry sometimes. That's a whole load of money to blow off on a really silly film with a bunch of non-trained actors, takat muka boleh pakai, AF has-beens... I don't mind horror films but I absolutely loathe ones that insult the intelligence of average movie-goers.

I had the most amazing awesome commercial class this morning, and an even more amazing directing the actor class with this former Oscar winning actress later in the afternoon. She was such a beautiful, beautiful woman before this happened. But she was still charismatically amazing, nevertheless!!!

Random post kucing!

It's end of Sunday.. already?!?! YE KE?!?!

Here is my super big room in my really nice apartment in Bushwick, Brooklyn. My roommate's home so I can't go out and take pictures of the living room, kitchen and her really adorable fat cat, Monk. Maybe next week when I have the time I'll go around and take pictures of the lovely Puerto Rican (I believe, but I could honestly be wrong) neighborhood I live in.

Anyway, what happened to my weekend?!!?
Shaitz.

First week of my last year in school, pretty boring generic random stuff. I had my first day at work here too, last Friday. I thought I could come in and just chill but I had to like, make an inventory and run errands, and erm, stuff. Well I guess I can't sit on my ass and expect to be paid now (not anymore)

MMMM OTHER THAN THAAAAT, this is my favourite hands down for now, I'm not really crazy about KJ or his antics but dia ni macam boleh jadik pelakon lah. Lawak ok.




OMG RAYA IS NEXT WEEK.
Oh I'm also watching Talentime in spurts now. It's not as interesting as I thought it would be. Although, I can't help but feel really, really sad watching it, it reminds me of how Yasmin isn't here anymore. Al-Fatihah!

Note to self: Malaysian Alcatraz - Pulau Jerejak

PS/OK soalan perasan sekarang -- I think I know those who read what I write, tapi korang yang lain ni dari mane... I'm curious. Tapi kalau tak nak bagitau takpe. Tak kisah. Gedik nak tau je.

Another rejection.. really?

Was the last film I made really THAT bad.. ?

:(

summer is over...

Crap, I don't get it.
I don't know you, I don't want to know you, but I see you in my dreams ALL THE TIME. I know I'm not supposed to be superstitious or take anything as signs but this is getting too creepy, even for me. STOP STOP APPEARING IN MY LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

summer update #15

Well, summer will be officially over for me tomorrow.
Hey ho! I got two new jobs at school. Hoping that I will max the 20 hour work limit. So I can save some dough to make a moooovie. Or, buy an apartment. Or, pay my DEBT. Or, splurge on a MARC JACOBS BAG.

On the other hand I didn't write crap for my thesis film.. which is due tomorrow!! HAAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!@$#$@#$@#!!@#!@#!@#!@$%$^%^&%^


OK over and OUT.

SO ANNOYEEEEEEEEEED

Ergh ergh I need to rant I'm soooo hating school right now.... hate hate hate hate hate hate hate... memang diorang racist tak suka orang Malaysia! Tak suka internationals.. ERGHHHHHH benci benci racist sial nak mampus benci benci benci benci benci benci benciiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

I AM SO DONE WITH YOU FUCKING NYU!

summer update #14

So far it's been a really blessed Ramadhan week!
Been buka-puasa-ing with friends, free food galore over Friday and Saturday - all I have to say is alhammmmdullilllaaaaaahhh.

Other than that I'm up rewriting Ep7. Hari tu termimpi jumpa Budi. Haaaaaih. It's almost taking over my life... and I have to submit my thesis script this Friday...

I'm thinking whether I should buy tickets to Kings of Convenience. And Yeah Yeah Yeahs.

Mmmm. Thinking.

rest in peace, my baby.

Bye sweetheart. You kept me warm through winter nights, and kept me company during bouts of loneliness.

It kills me knowing how you passed on - it kills me knowing that the only way to stop your suffering was to put you to sleep. It kills me knowing that I'll no longer be able to breathe in your beautiful coat of blue-grey fur, lovingly bite your soft pink paws, and play fetch with crumpled balls of paper with you...

Psyang, I love you, and will always miss you.

:(

:(

summer update #13

Absolutely craving for this.

:(

summer update #12

I guess it really helps, when you seem to be on a permanent (emotional) roller coaster ride, to be with someone who doesn't hold grudges, is forgiving and understanding about your need to act like a total loony bin sometimes.

What a way to start the day! A google conversation with a filmmaker who's actually made it!
Ah, he seems to have a plushy life. So there must be hope!

Note to self: STOP VEGETATING!

summer update #11

I'm riding the subway lines and aaaaaargh I can't snap out of this weird... daze I'm in.
Like crap, I'm really back in stinking New York!!!

I don't know whether to be happy or joyous or sad or whatever.

The 21 + hour flight was treacherous as expected, food was awful, my cab driver totally ripped me off, but I got to walk into the uber cool white tunnel in the Mode office set (of Ugly Betty). I'm back in Bushwick thanks to my dearest Chloe who left keys to her apartment, and let me vegetate in her cosy room with A/C while she's away in Beijing..

Anyhoo, I think I found myself an apartment! It's really really nice. It's in Bushwick still, but I've got MY OWN FREAKIN ROOM WITH A DOOR, so I'm happy!!! So last Friday was the first time meeting my future roommate Amy after all that corresponding through facebook - she is ultra cool, super selamba and unlike any other Mat Sallehs I've met. And better still, she has a tv which she'll bring and told me I could use whenever. But best of all - she has the WII!!!

I watched two amazing films over the week.. well ok 3 if you count the one on free streaming. I'll write more later.
Oh, so I've also got a new job! So I wrote two episodes for this show (and almost died in the process.. here I am trying to pack to leave to New York and staying up the night trying to finish the re-writes.. ) thinking that they would never ask me to write again (the last revisions I sent in, honest to GOD I wrote while in a semi-comatose state... couldn't even make out what rubbish I was typing out on my dad's tiny netbook in the dark) but weirdly enough I'm being asked to write more. Well I guess my film is taking a backseat for now... and I'll just get all gelabah when I have a table reading in.. less than 12 weeks from now (ok that doesn't sound so bad.. if I can dish out 40 pages in a week, how hard could 8 pages be?!! ERGH. I'm just trying to make myself feel better here... after all the procrastination over the summer)

Blah blah blah melalut betul. I'm really starting to sound self-indulgent here.
I hate goodbyes! I hated frantically looking for you from below, knowing it's the last time you'd be there right in front of my eyes until I get to see you again --- but weirdly enough you suddenly said you can't wait for me to be back so we can jump on the bandwagon and be part of that elusive/exclusive club.. :P

OK OK bai.

summer update #10

LIFE REALLY SUCKS!
I KNEW ONE THING OR THE OTHER WOULD SCREW ME OVER!


guess I'm staying at the airport for the week...... :(

summer update #9

I've had a rather splendid week.

Thank you, God.