karma is a bitch indeed.

i never did get to blow any candles, or eat cake.
but there was pleasant company and good food. so that made up for the lack of chocolate sponge or blueberry cheese.
and a late message stirred mixed feelings - for a split second, as corny as it sounds, my heart actually ached for him.

but anyhoo.
in a way or the other, karma always seems to find a way to bite your ass... remember when i said work was really fine, but i still felt lonely? last monday i bumped into a familiar face who was coming on board- not even a close friend but an acquantaince, like, FINALLY! Someone i could talk to or have lunch with when the time calls for it. i was ecstatic! then another new person comes in. she is my age and watches grey's anatomy religiously... suddenly people at work seem nicer, and honestly, i don't feel like i dread going to work anymore.

for the first time in 3 months... work's.. fun.
no, really.

but then of course it all comes crashing down. given an uphill task of writing a recruitment ad for the world's largest Islamic bank, i was stumped. i mean literally, stumped SILLY. so while it was due to be presented by 4pm on wednesday, at 4.10pm my copy was being brutally labelled as "catalogue-ish" and "BLAH!" and "i'm sorry to ask this.. but do you think in English, or BM, Nadiah?" by my ecd. of course i was beyond horrified! and there were TONNES of grammatical errors... thinking of it again, i really had some bloody nerve to see my boss with such shoddy work.

so i kinda snapped back to my senses. came home and didn't sleep til like 5.30 am.
and today it was "very good!"

PHEWH.
at least i know for now, my job's still secured.

someone just came in for an interview, and she surely looked 'writer-ish'.
ok maybe i need to work a little bit harder.

it's weird in a way. i have no time for myself, no time for a life and just writing decent copy for a simple recruitment ad just drains every single bit out of me. like i could just write something decent and hand it over, but there is this super strong urgent need of wanting to make it better. to make it work.

aghhh now i know how people have a love-hate relationship with their advertising careers. they don't know why they still do it although it makes them lose a whole chunk of their personal lives.

because at the end of the day, when everything just CLICKS, it makes you feel good.

like damnit.
REALLY GOOD.